Fiction

Vagitus

NAHIPUGWAT si Angelo. Naigpot nga mibangon ug milingkod sa ngilit sa iyang lantay. Nadakpan na niya ang iyang gininhawa nga mibiya kaniya ganiha. Nihangos siya ganiha tungod kay nagpuot iyang dughan daw gi-ataki siya sa kasingkasing. Tiguwang na siya ug angay na nga magmikgaw o mag-amping sa iyang mga lihok. Miginhawa siya og lawom.

“Lahi na gyud basta edaran na,” matod niya sa iyang hunahuna, gipirok-pirok niya iyang mata daw mao kini paagi para makapuli pag usab ang kahayag sa kangitngit nga mitabon sa iyang mga mata sa dihang giniyaan siya sa iyang gininhawa.

INANAY nga mibalik ang kahayag nga napawong sa pagkaputol sa iyang gininhawa ganiha human siya atakiha sa kasingkasing. Gapirok-pirok pa siya sa iyang mga mata dihang nakadungog siya nga adunay nanaguto sa iyang kiliran. Wala niya maklaro kon kinsa kini ug kon unsay dagway niini taliwala sa kangitngit sa palibot.

“Nabuhi ka og setenta y dos ka tuig, upat ka buwan, unom ka adlaw, walo ka oras, onse ka minutos, ug singkwenta y uno ka segundos.” Nabati ni Angelo ang naglanog-lanog nga mga pulong.

Mibutok-butok ang iyang dughan ug misugod na sab og paspas ang iyang gininhawa.

“Patay na ba ko?” Wa siya kahibawo kon asa siya mas makugang: sa iya bang panagna o sa iyang kaatubang nga wa diay dagway kon di ang kangitngit nga sama sa kaganihang mihabol sa iyang mga mata.

“Maayo sab to nga record, uy! Pero sunod, madala pa na nimo nga mas ubos pas setenta ka tuig. Mga singkwenta, o di ba kaha kwarenta.” Wa siya tubayi.

“Pero, dili ba ang tumong sa kinabuhi kay mabuhi’g dugay?” sukot niya.

“Dumalayon ka man. Walay katapusan. Kanunayng naa. Di mawala. Magbalik-balik. Sa kapaspason sa matag paglampos ra ang may kalahian.” Mihangad ang kangitngit, apan wala niya kini makita.

“Dili man lumba ang kinabuhi!” Miduko siya ug milingo-lingo. “Nag-agad lang kini sa pagbuot sa Gamhanang Magbubuhat.”

“Mao gyud nay mga pulong sa mga langayan!” Milanog pag usab ang tingog sa iyang katabi sa wala pa kini inanay nga nahanaw.

Sa kalit may nadunggan siyang kisaw sa iyang nahimutangan. Mga tawo nga nanagtabi. Apan wa siyay nakitang laing tawo sa iyang palibot. Adunay babaye nga nagsiyagit sa kasakit nga iyang gibati. Pamilyar kaniya ang tingog niini, mora kini og sa iyang inahan, apan nganong murag mas bata paminawn, ug kon iya gyud kining inahan, nganong nagsiyagit man kini. Unya nabatyagan niya ang iyang gininhawa nga ni-inanay na sab og kahanaw, apan karon mikuyog kini sa hangin. Mihangak siya. Kusog nga mibutok-butok ang iyang dughan. Mihangos siya. Milingi-lingi siya pero wala siyay nakita kon di ang pagkamang sa kangitngit sa palibot padung kaniya ug ang iyang pagkahanaw. Dayon mipuli ang tumang kahilom.

MIBUAK sa kahilom ang hilak sa usa ka puya nga bag-ong nahimugso.

“Angelo. Angelo ang akong ingalan kaniya,” matod sa babaye nga nagsiyagit kaganiha.

Manila Ocean

PARA PO! Sumigaw ako nang malakas na malakas sa nagmamaneho ng van na sinasakyan ko. Bababa sana ako sa Quezon Avenue ngunit damdam ko nang napapalayo na ako. Nakatulog na pala ako sa van nang mahimbing dahil puyat na naman akong pumasok sa paaralan. Maraming requirements sa school at kailangan ko talagang gumising nang maaga para makasakay ng van papuntang Maynila kaya ibinabali ko ang pagtulog tuwing nagko-commute ako.

Bigla akong nag-panic dahil ako na lang din ang mag-isa sa van. Baka kung ano pang gawin sa akin ng driver na hindi ko magustuhan. Nagwala ako sa loob at pumunta ako sa likod ng driver para guluhin siya ngunit wala palang nagmamaneho sa van. Kinabahan ako nang sobra at kinagat ko ang mga kuko sa kamay na parang bata at napaisip nang malalim. Panaginip ba ito? 

Dumungaw ako sa bintana at nakitang nakalubog na pala ang van sa tubig. Mas lalo akong kinabahan. Wala akong maaninag sa labas kundi tubig at mga isdang lumalangoy. Habang nag-iisip ng paraan upang makatakas sa delubyong ito, biglang may tumunog na cellphone sa loob ng van. Agad ko namang hinanap at sinubukang sagutin ang tawag ngunit hindi ko naabutan. 

Nagulat na lang ako. Abril 28, 2046 ang nakalagay sa kalendaryo.

Cloud Painting

         It was the second military checkpoint and the seat of the old jeepney was feeling warmer every minute. “Yawa, ma-late man sad tag samot ani,” Christine mutters under her breath dabbing her handkerchief on the top of her forehead. What was even the purpose of waking up at 4:00 AM, going out of her house at 5:30 AM, and still sweating inside this creaking jeepney at 7:30 AM? 

An old man holding a bucket of fish between his legs casually asks the conductor when the military checkpoints will stop. “Ah, murag dugay pa. Daghan man gud gabakwit nga Muslim, kulbaan si mayor basin naay masulod nga mga bomba,” Lots of Muslims seeking refuge. The mayor is scared. Bombs might enter the city. The conductor says to the old man then taps the roof of the jeepney. The driver takes the signal and rushes off.

         Christine slumps into the corner of the jeep thinking how much she had to pay for her late fines again. However, she still hears the other passengers talking about the Muslims evacuating in the city and snippets from the news about how the senators were arguing if there was really an ongoing war in Mindanao. Christine read about wars in their social studies class and there was always the mention of generals, soldiers, and death. She sees the soldiers from the military checkpoint but it doesn’t feel scary. Maybe some of those senators were right. There has to be no war. War can’t be this peaceful. Well, it wasn’t her concern so Christine’s thoughts wandered to her high school. The Homeroom class was probably already ongoing.

When she got to school, she had to list her name on the Late List but found it funny that her friend, Amina, was also listed there. Christine enters the classroom and sees Amina on their assigned table at the front leftmost of the classroom: close to the board to listen but still out of a teacher’s direct vision. There was no teacher present which was good for Christine. Amina was already holding a paintbrush filling in the grass spaces of their sketch from yesterday.  “Amina! I saw your name on the list. We should have just gone late together.” Christine placed her backpack on the floor beside her chair and took a paintbrush from Amina’s pencil case.

         “Yeah. Pisti gali, I did not want to be late but my uncle and his kids arrived from Marawi. We had to clean the extra rooms in the house.”

         “From Marawi? Why?”

         “They said there’s a war. They escaped last night.” 

         Wow, so there was a war happening.

         “What do you think the colors of the sky should be? I found these photos from the internet.” Amina shows Christine a couple of pictures from her phone that showed skies and clouds in different colors. One was a mixture of light green and pink, while the other one showed violet and orange. “How about we just combine the colors we like? To have that dreamy effect, you know?” Christine says looking at the pictures from Amina’s phone. Amina considers for a moment and agrees.

         It was the end of the homeroom period but instead of their Christian Living teacher, Teacher Mary, their adviser, entered. Teacher Mary announces that their next class will be canceled because of the scheduled earthquake drill. While the teacher was announcing the reminders, someone tapped Amina’s shoulder. It was Gino.

         “Ams, they said there are more Muslims in the city right now. You are not lonely anymore.”

         Christine furrows her brows. Why would Amina be lonely? She had Christine as her friend.

Gino held Amina’s hijab. At the same time, Christine audibly gasped and Amina quickly slapped Gino’s hand away and shouted, “Can you stop?!” Men aren’t allowed to touch the hijab of a woman. Teacher Mary’s head swiftly turned around in their direction but when she saw it was Amina who made the noise, she just said, “Quiet, class.”

         “But Teacher, Gino touched Amina’s hijab.” Christine points at Gino who is quietly laughing. Teacher Mary glanced at Amina and then directed her sight to Gino. “Gino, don’t touch Amina’s hijab. Or do you want to be a Muslim so you can have one?” This garnered a response from the class with their classmates teasing Gino and Amina.

         “Aww, pwede. You can marry lots of women there, right?” Gino quips, raising one of his eyebrows.

Yawa ra, who even wants to marry you?” Christine says thinking of ways she can shave that eyebrow.

         “Christine! No cursing. Ms. Secretary, list Christine’s name for a fine.” Really? Christine thinks. Amina was also obviously annoyed. Christine is fined but Gino gets away from touching her hijab.

         “You should also convert Chris, so I can marry you both,” Gino whispers to Christine. Amina hears it and Christine knows she is mad. “Gino, shut up or I’ll have your house bombed,” Amina whispers to Gino. Christine knew that Amina was only joking, albeit a bit threatening, to Gino. It worked as Gino instantly stepped back with wide eyes although Christine wonders if Amina did have bombs in their house. She remembered their house but it was just like any other house except Amina’s father loved playing Arabic songs.

         Teacher Mary told them to wait for the bell as a signal for the earthquake drill and went outside the room. Amina and Christine continued painting their clouds in different colors but Amina was quiet throughout. Christine knew she was mad at Gino but she knew it was not just Gino. She had always noticed how other students’ and teachers’ eyes would linger on Amina’s hijab or her long-sleeved uniform in contrast to everyone’s short sleeves. She noticed how Amina would go quiet every time someone brought up the conflicts.

         Amina would say, “Mura sa’g ang mga Kristiyano dili gauna ug pang-gyera.” As if Christians don’t start wars. The whispering and the stares became worse when the news about Marawi reached their city. Christine does not watch the news but she hears of it at home, the jeepney, or the market. She could also hear Gino and his friends talking about it in the classroom and they occupied most seats.

         The bell rang. The earthquake drill was starting. Christine and Amina immediately went to duck under their tables as they were taught but then they heard Gino shout, “The Muslims are here to bomb us!” Then laughter.

         Christine saw Amina’s face turn red and she felt her cheeks burn and her nails digging into her palm. Everyone was under their tables but she could hear their classmates laughing while the bell rang loudly. Christine hated it. Christine knew Amina hated it and if there were other good private schools in their small city, she knew Amina would not be there. Christine stood up and looked for Gino’s table. She saw Gino’s cropped hair and pulled his uniform dragging him out from under the table. They stand at the same height forcing Gino to meet Christine’s eyes at the same level. His eyes widened and before he could react, Christine got to him first. A punch directly to his face and Gino’s body fell with a thud to the floor.

         There was a collective gasp inside the classroom. Christine’s fist burned. Gino was prey on the floor. Christine’s foot was on Gino’s chest and she was about to stoop down to grab his polo uniform and punch him again when she heard Teacher Mary shout, “Christine Dela Cruz! What are you doing?”

         Only then could Christine hear the bell ringing again. Amina was beside her and kicked Gino’s leg first before dragging her out of the classroom. They ran. They ran so hard through the mob of students doing the earthquake drill. They could hear a few calls asking them to stop but they were too afraid that their teachers could catch up to them. However, despite the fear, there was elation. Christine’s heart could burst and if it were at this moment, she would not mind at all.

         “Do you think they will expel me?” Christine asks while panting heavily when they reach their hideout.

“Suspension, probably but I think they will find a way to make me the reason for it. If they consider expulsion, between the two of us, I think they would rather keep a Christian.” Amina says. Christine loves God but is unsure if she is Christian enough. She can’t even stay awake during the rosary.

         Amina was holding the top of her hijab that got a bit displaced when they ran. They sat together on the floor. Christine offers her phone’s camera to Amina and while fixing her hijab, Amina speaks. “They are so dumb. Anything about killing and they blame us. The Qur’an tells us that one of the greatest sins is to kill other human beings. Anyone who does so is not a real Muslim. It is even the same with one of your Ten Commandments. ‘Thou shall not kill’ but Christians kill each other all the time. It’s all over the news but people only seem to care of mentioning religion in murders if it’s with mine.” Christine knew it was true.

         They sat beside each other cursing at Gino and his friends, Teacher Mary for not caring, the difference between Christians and Muslims, and how Jesus would probably hate their school. They did not enter any of their classes and ate their lunch with the food in their lunch boxes. Christine had pork adobo. Amina had chicken. 

         Hours passed and it was almost sunset.

         “Is your mother going to get mad if you go home late?” Amina asks while they lie on the floor looking at the sky.

         “Nah. I’ll just tell her that the traffic’s heavy at the checkpoints,” Christine responds.

         The two girls watched the clouds pass and form different shapes with different hues of orange, violet, and pink. As they watch the colors mix in the sky, Christine is reminded of the painting she and Amina made that morning. Maybe if God and Allah were different separate beings, they must have had fun painting the clouds. Maybe, just like Christine and Amina, they were also friends despite the difference.

Carpe Diem

Hapo nang naglalakad si Dan pauwi matapos ang mahabang araw. Binisita siya ni Kamatayan, “bukas ikaw na ay aking susunduin.”

Nagulat si Dan. Tumawa ng sobrang lakas na parang kinukutya si Kamatayan.

Pagbangon kinabukasan, pinilit niyang mag-toothbrush at magsuot ng uniporme para pumasok. Kahit pa siya ay tinatamad at ang sarap mahiga lang sa kama buong araw. Naglakad sa sakayan ng libreng sakay papuntang City Hall. Natulog sa byahe dahil alam na ng katawan niyang kailangan nang gumising kapag bababa na. Pagdating sa 3rd floor ng Finance, binati ang mga kasama bago maupo sa cubicle. At ang gabundok na transactions ng buong Quezon City ay sinimulan nang i-encode isa-isa. Titigil lang siya kapag ang mga dokumentong na-record na sa database ay natambak na sa tabing upuan na maaari nang ibigay sa boss para ma-audit uli at mapirmahan. Titigil lang siya para kumain nang tanghalian. Titigil lang siya kapag tapos na ang oras ng trabaho. Magpapaalam sa mga kasama lalo na sa kaniyang boss. Aalis ng opisinang parang hindi nabawasan ang gabundok na papel. Ito ang pang-araw araw na buhay ni Dan. Dahilan, na tulad din ngayong gabi, hapo siyang naglalakad pauwi.

“Bakit hindi mo dininig ang aking babala!” nanlilisik na bungad ni Kamatayan.

Nagulat si Dan. Tumalikod at nadatnang nagbalik muli si Kamatayan. Tumawa ng malakas si Dan.

Ang Balbal sa Malingin

You can never tell a book by its cover.

— Fuller & Rolfe, 1946

 

DIRIYOT NAKONG MABUHIAN ang pisi sa atabay. Nagkaguliyang ang tibuok Malingin. Miamag sa tubig ang kahayag sa buwan ug ang dakong kayo. Midayag sa akong atubangan ang payag ni Noy Edgar nga nagdilaab.

Si Noy Edgar, mikalit lang og butho sa among sityo usa niana ka adlaw. Walay nahisayod sa iyang kagikan. Bisan sa iyang apilyedo. Siya ang sagad nakong masugo-sugo sa akong gamayng kamaisan. Ingon man nga siya ang tigbantay sa akong kamalig nga nahimutang tunga-tunga sa uma. Ang maong payag gihimo na sab nga puloy-anan sa tiguwang.  Apan, sukad-masukad nga naabot si Noy Edgar sa Malingin, sunod-sunod sab ang nahitabong pagbalbal sa mga hayop. Ma baboy man kun ma baka; ma manok man kun ma itik; ma iro man kun ma iring. Tanan naay pinaakan sa usa ka mangtas nga mananap. Hangtod sa usa ka dakong balita ang mihatag og hubag-hubag sa Malingin. Sa dihang ang kamanghorang anak ni Nang Santa ang nabiktima. Naabtan na lang usa ka buntag  sa dalan:

Nagusbat ang sapot. 

Nabulit sa mga kinambrasan. 

Ang tinai nahabwa sa tiyan.

Tungod sa panghitabo, magronda magabii ang mga tanod. Apan, usa niana ka higayon, nasangit sa ilang panan-aw si Noy Edgar. Nagkamuritsing kini sa dugo. Samtang nagkagiwatay ang mga karne sa usa ka hayop sa iyang tiilan. Sa dihang gibugaw sa mga tanod, misutoy og dagan ang tiguwang. Latas sa kamaisan.

NAHIPUGWAT KO SA AKONG PAGKATULOG anang gabhiona. Misugat ang pamilyar nga bayhon sa akong duha ka mga mata. Oo, si Noy Edgar! Nabulit siya sa singot ug dugo. Naghangos. Bitbit niya ang ulo sa akong iro, nga sa akong kasayoran, dugay na kining nahimong irong buang. Samtang nagpuyos ang tiguwang sa kangulngol sa mga kinambrasan ug pinaakan sa mananap. 

Minunot sa amakan nakong bungbong ang dan-ag sa mga nangagdilaab nga mga banuot samtang namidpid mi pagawas ni Noy Edgar sa akong balay. Dali ming misuot-suot sa bagang mga kugon palayo sa bul-og sa mga tawo. Hangtod sa naabot mi sa usa ka atabay. Mianihag sa tunga-tunga sa kamaisan ang hinanaling pagsilaob sa kamalig. Samtang hanoy nga mipadailos si Noy Edgar sa pisi pailawom sa atabay. Samtang giiwagan siya sa hiniusang kahayag sa kayo ug buwan.