2019

At Napagod ang Hagdan

Maya’t maya ang pagdaan mo sa aking mga baytang, 
Tila isang dambuhalang dumadagan sa katawan. 
Malimit pang magmadali ang hakbang mong may pagyanig, 
Na para bang isang lindol at ikaw lang itong manhid. 

Kadalasan ay ako rin ang ‘yong tagpuang-pag-ibig, 
O di kaya ay upuan o patungan ng iyong gamit. 
Sa akin mo rin iniiwan ang basurang ikinalat, 
At ang dura mong animo’y luha niyong mga ulap. 

At sa hula ay muli kang nanlalata sa pagdating, 
Mabibigat ang iyong hakbang at mayroon kang hinaing. 
Sinabi mo’y pagod ka na sa pagbaba at pagpanhik, 
Tugon sana’y pagod na rin ako sa iyong pagbabalik.

 

Aklat Antolohiya ng LIRA Fellows 2018, Great Concept Printing Co., November 2018

Liwayway Magazine, Manila Bulletin, Marso 2019

(hI)Law-as

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makamingaw imong baybayon.
ang mga lusay sa imong hunasan,
ang tambasakan sa imong bakawan,
imong paghagunghong taliwa sa akong bilahan.

pagaisipon sa gihapon nga bugsay imong dila;
sa katuyoman, ang akong mga tudlo
manghiram sa bakasi 
nga idlas sa akong mga kamot.

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Excavating the Trauma: Notes on the Teng Mangansakan’s Forbidden Memory

If the emotional is too on-top of the speaking voice, surrendering to a guiding thought an idea, a proposition, a question can pass as urgent.

In watching the premiere of Gutierrez ‘Teng’ Mangansakan’s Forbidden Memory last 2017, I had to quell a kind of rage gearing to erupt in the wake of a reopened rupture its closure is a delusion that has rapped the country’s memory for decades.

When we speak of Martial Law, we speak of the human rights violations; we speak of the infrastructural progress that birthed international debts we are still paying today; we speak of Imelda’s lavishness, we speak of the Marcoses’ theft; we speak against the temptation to just forget or move on.

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The Settler Settles In: Locating a Space for the Settler in Rogelio Braga’s Colon

What if one flees the enemy or better, pursues him only to find that the enemy is one’s self?  Such is the fate of the post-colonial subject, whether identified with the colonizer or the colonized.  Indeed, one could argue that the lines between colonizer and colonized, such as they were drawn, have long bled into each other.  

Rogelio Braga’s novel Colon takes to task the narratives of nationalism in the Philippines.  It attempts to dismantle, or at least interrogate the meanings attached to the scholar and the savage, the capital and the provinces, re-presenting each one in what Braga hopes is a fresh light.  It is possible to discern an effort to present a three-dimensional view of Philippine society, where the picturesque personalities of Manilenyo call center agent, Moro merchant, or university professor, are never quite what the reader thinks they will be.

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Entre Medio Del Fin (In the Middle of an End)

SCENE 1 – EXT. PEACE MURAL/ INT. CAR – DAY 

A peace mural is seen from inside a moving car. The view is hazy and we can barely see it. 

AYESHA, 16, a pregnant Muslim lady is looking at something off screen. 

SCENE 2 – WHITE LETTER ON A BLACK BACKGROUND: TITLE 

SCENE 3 – EXT. TERRACE – DAY 

We hear the neighbors fighting over a mango tree. DANNY, 30’s, a petite man, sees it from the terrace. He gets a little irritated, takes a stick of cigarette and puffs. There is a huge fruitless mango tree behind him. 

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